How I know I'm retarded.

I've been working on some simple 2x2 ribbed socks for the last couple of weeks or so. The progress has been really slow going, mostly because it took me about 8 attempts to actually get the thing started. I would always do something idiotic and lose about 4 or 5 stitches, or I would be knitting so tight I could barely move the needles. Anyway, I finally got the hang of it and started making progress on my sock. When it got time for me to start the heel flap, I freaked out. For some reason I was convinced that I cast on a number of stitches not recommended in the pattern, like a total douche bag. Also like I douche bag I run straight to Ravelry screaming for help because these are my first socks and I can't NOT follow the pattern exactly because I don't know what I'm doing, which apparently didn't cross my mind when I cast on a stupid number of stitches. So some lovely individual gives me a solution I understand, but because I'm so stressed out due to work I decide to wait until my days off. Well, lo and behold, I start the heel flap and it turns out I DID cast on the right number of stitches. Not only did I do the right thing and not remember, but I WROTE IT DOWN in my knitting notebook, in which I keep track of these things so a situation like this doesn't have to happen.
I'll post pictures as soon as I find the charging cord for the camera.